“for those who have one, know one, or is one..”
“who is mr. “what if?”
he’s the one you once made love to
in a dream,
or in reality.
the one who slips into your thoughts
when your alone…
or with someone else.
he’s the one you yearn for,
the one you let get away.
the one whom you reminisce about past affections
the man you think of one day feeling clear reflections of his love.
he makes you laugh,
when the world’s cruelty makes you cry.
when everyone else only sees the style of your hair,
the makeup on your face,
and build of your body,
he knows your mind,
feels your spirit,
and sees your soul
underneath it all.
he’s the friend that’s more than a friend,
the crush,
the old flame that continues burning deeply within.
the man who you would,
if you could, but you won’t,
cause for some reason you just can’t…
but what if???”
Of all the pieces that I have written this is one of my favorites. When you can sit down and relive the past and just remember...remember how things used to be and were supposed to be. Even as I read it again on your blog (as I do not go back and re-read my own stuff typically) I get filled with such raw emotion. I don't do compassion and emotion well. Just a character trait that I never picked up...
ReplyDeletei know what you mean about not going back and re-reading the stuff that you’ve written; i think i only do that when someone is pointing out something i’ve penned or to make sure i’m not repeating a thought in a new piece. but there is an extraordinary sense of awareness that comes with reading a thought you’ve written based on actual events and causes you to remember feeling...well, feelings. btw, it’s one of my favorite pieces of yours as well.
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