Writes..."Bye Bye Love"

"on november 27, 2011, at 11:47 pm, i was alone...laying down thinking because i couldn't sleep, when i had an epiphany: the sad realization that i am destined to continue spending my life by myself. at first i found this acknowledgment of self-awareness to be difficult to accept, but the truth is, when i'm being completely honest with myself, there's a reality i can't deny: if loving someone means giving all of yourself to them, then i don't think i'll ever love anyone. i mean, i know i never have; and i don't really see that changing anytime soon. i'm scared...too scared to give 100 percent of myself to anyone. too afraid to trust; to be vulnerable; to even be loved. and how can a person truly accept another's heart when they won't let go of their own? i don't know..."