Writes..."Reckless...One 12-Syllable Line At A Time"

“i tell her i love her but she’s not feeling me…

and by not feeling me, i mean literally,
no part of her is touching me physically…
‘cause tonight she isn’t where she should really be…
and her breasts and ass aren’t where they should really be;
one in my grasp, while the other’s concealing me…
i find no hands on my body revealing the…
parts of myself that i’d expose appealingly…
truth is the distance between us is killing me;
“us” being our “sextin’” parts what’s i really mean…
i can’t think anymore, the strain is killing me,
i’m so hard, i’d piss only to be spilling pee…
my dick’s a pole: steel but curved like the “phillies p”;
and my testicles: as blue as a “phillies p”…
so i say fuck the hand that life is dealing me…
no girl, no kids; a fucked-up hand’s reality…
in life i’m forced to fuck my hand unwillingly…
and risk the chance of future children spilling free…
i just shot the next black prez at the ceiling, see…
‘cause i have to do that since she’s not feeling me…”

Quotes...Me...VIII

"they said eventually the feeling will fade but i want the "butterflies in my stomach" that i get when i think of her to remain there forever."

"what exactly does "real talk" mean and why do people feel the need to emphasize what they say by using the phrase? i'm not really one to waste words, so know if i'm speaking at all that shit is as "real" as it gets."

"life's always been a bitch...i just discovered i'm not fucking her right."

"the world's full of assholes; i'm the laxative that makes their shit tolerable."

"nipples don't get fatter."

"i wish women would stop echoing my feelings. i'm tired of hearing the things i say merely directed back at me as original thought."

"nothing gets my dick softer than a woman that lacks confidence. well, other than ejaculating in a woman that lacks confidence."

Writes..."Az Yet"

"she's chosen to be become a better person because of him, not because of him." - me

"i am an asshole for saying that, or, i could be an asshole for saying those words and i'd be ok with people thinking that if that's what they think. sometimes that's the case when i express how i feel, and i've already discovered if you choose to feel anything about anything you have to be able to accept that folks will probably feel something about your feelings. even if the majority may not agree with me; hell, i spend my life as a minority as it is (bonus points for wordplay). but it's cool either way, it's what i believe. just know that i'm not an asshole for using doublespeak in my quote because i didn't say the same thing twice. well, i did, but i didn't mean the same thing twice.

"she's chosen to become a better person because of him, not because of him" - me…again

my point is merely this…

she says she does this now, and she's trying to stop that; and i can see that she's making great strides to "be better" than she's been in the past. but she says these things and while i listen to her talk, i don't hear any of this effort to be due to the overwhelming positive influence her partner has had on her. i don't know, perhaps this bothers me because i want to believe in "overwhelming" and it just isn't the right word to use. to hear her tell it, "nonexistent" would be a more accurate adjective for describing his affirming qualities. so not "because of him", or the uplifting presence he instills in her, the changes she's making in her life can be attributed to her realization that there is no positive and that only by working on herself can she attempt to find some sense of balance between them...well, until she does those things because of him. 

but people don't change, look at me. i said i was an asshole and this thought serves as proof."