"we kiss as soon as i open the door and she blushes, embarrassed that there are people watching our very public display of affection. she begins to shuffle; her mind telling her to pull away from me but she can't; her heart won't let her. we continue making out in the doorway because seh already knows what i would say about her reluctance to do so; something about us having not seen each other in a long time, blah blah (the feel of my lips on hers); or her having come such a long way just to see me, more blah blah (slipped her some tongue); the most important thing being that i love her and really don't give a shit about who sees me slobbing her down. so so doesn't break from our kiss. she loves me and she loves how i used to slob her down; i mean how i slob her down. yeah, that's what i meant.
we stand the kissing for about three minutes before she literally has to pull herself away from me; our lips releasing with an audible pop. she turns her head towards my mother and they acknowledge one another; first with a wave and then a pretty standard exchange of pleasantries before she offers an modest apology for our behavior at the door. my mother accepts it, saying she understands, that she can only imagine how this must be for us; to finally be re-united after all these years; knowing that we still have feelings for each other. but i know my mother, so it isn't a stretch for me to imagine her shaking her head in disapproval as we were having our moment. not unhappy for us, just disapproving of our methods; she wasn't one for participating in that kind of overt expression of passion; or one for having to watch one. she says she understands and i think she really wants to, but i don't think she really comprehends this connection between us. all she remembers is that we were together and then we weren't; all we remember is everything else. i can't make her understand that we're bonded. so i offer no apology. like i said before, i don't really give a shit about who sees me slobbing her down; slobbing her up; or slobbing her sideways."
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