Re-Writes..."Nightmare"

"well fuck you and fuck him too. i don't care what either of you two think", i say, turning around to face the window. trying to hide the tears that are now streaming down my face. but it is a futile effort and this pain has overwhelmed me to a point beyond discretion. and she comes at me. and she reaches for me. and we cry in each other's arms because we both know we can't make this work. we just can't be together. then i woke up, though i quickly realized reality holds the same result for us the dream had. so now i try not to dream about you. or us. our situation's painful enough in the waking world."

sometime in '00 or '01, was writing on loose sheets of paper and wasn't dating them.