Re-Writes..."Smile"

"why'd you'd have to do it
that evil thing you do
a bittersweet gesture
and if you only knew

when times are hard for me
my troubles have me down
when problems make it hard
for me to even better

i hide a secret pain
of which i keep from all
hidden in emptiness
surrounded by a wall

but when i think of you
and what you do to me
it baffles my mind just
how evil you can be

but maybe you're not bad
maybe you're not that vile
maybe you're not evil
when all you do is smile

and when you smile at me
my troubles seem to wane
like doesn't seem that bad
relieve my secret pain

that perfect smile you have
that reassures all doubt
spreading light to my heart
sending the darkness out

while all these things are good
i still don't think you're right
because i know i want
what's behind that smile tonight"

3-25-00