Writes..."I Understand I'm Tired Of Understanding"

"i honestly think i use the term "i understand" more than i say my own name. "i understand", "brian", "i understand", "brian"...wait, i know i do. i don't even use my own name when speaking so i guess that was a bad attempt at an exaggeration. or hyperbole or whatever. people say stuff and i can appreciate their situation and the why's they do the things they do or feel a certain way about something. i can. and if i can't, i at least try to. life is hard and sometimes it's pretty shitty and i'd like to think that having someone at least attempt to empathize with them during that bullshit would make a person feel a little bit better about what they were going through.

but "i understand" is getting old. 'cause i'm always having to "understand" some shit that i'm not trying to hear. she says, "blah blah...(something i'm not liking)", i say, "i understand". he says "blah blah...(he's flaking on me)", i say, "i understand". be better, people. 'cause i don't know who "understands" what i'm saying to them when it's not what they want. "understanding" is tiring, no, i guess i'm getting tired of "understanding" stuff, is a more accurate statement. so "i understand" may have to be removed from my vernacular and replaced with "yep" or "gotcha" or some other term that can easily be perceived as asshole-ish. so now if she says, "blah blah...(bad stuff for me)", i counter with "gotcha, uh huh" and let that shit go. "understanding" is holding on and my arms are hurting and my fingers are slipping. so no more "i understand's" from me. fuck that. "gotcha" is the way to go now, even at the risk of looking like an asshole. and maybe i can get somebody to "understand" why it's come to this."