"you say you don't believe that love conquers all. ok. neither do i. love doesn't conquer all, but without it trying is pointless. what i mean is, if i didn't love you then why try to convince you to be with me, despite the obstacles, despite the obstacles, despite the fact that it might all in be vain? if i only liked you, i don't think i would even try to pursue a relationship with you. there's too much shit, too many hindrances between us for me to move forward on an infatuation. if i only liked you, would not being with you hurt so much? and would i need you this bad? i've liked people before and people have liked me but i've rarely pursued intimate relationships with others. i think it's because i was scared. but it's not like i'm afraid of commitment or anything like that. i was afraid that i would give my heart to someone and then they would hurt me. and i didn't want to be put in that situation. so i never got involved with anyone. but for us, even the possibility of us, i try. i take the only thing i have to offer you and use it to make you realize my feelings are true and that i'm not going away. by doing those little things to make you smile. i'm hoping that the effort i put into us will make you believe that i'll always be there for you. and i'll always care about you. because right now that's all i have. my effort. and my love for you. so know that i love you. since now you know that i wouldn't try if i didn't. i wouldn't waste the effort."
sometime in '00 or '01, was writing on loose sheets of paper and wasn't dating them. (originally...)
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