Re-Writes..."Fornication"

"when words aren't enough and actions seem lacking, expressing the feelings i have for you is my dilemma and yet it's a challenge i readily accept. because letting you know how much i care for you is my top priority. but there are other things i need you to know. like how i stare at you, studying your features, noticing, learning you. and how i dream about caressing your body, lazily tracing your every curve with my fingers, exploring, discovering. how i ache to place my lips on yours, seeking out their softness, their fullness and kiss you with an overwhelming passion that leaves you weak and forces you into my arms for support. how my desire for you grows with each passing day. how i anticipate every encounter with you. how i long for that sensation, that spark that pulsates through my body when we touch. these are some of the things that you don't know. some of the things you'll never understand. like how i can't live without you. how i feel about you. how much i want you and how much i need you to want me. how i'm miserable when we're apart and i dread missing an opportunity to talk to you. to be with you. but like i said, you'll never understand how i feel. how i need you. how much you mean to me. still, maybe one day you'll understand how it feels to be me. and what you do to me. but until then, i just think and wonder and hope that you're thinking the same things about me."

sometime in '00 or '01, was writing on loose sheets of paper and wasn't dating them.