"the truth. i discovered i have feelings for a girl that right now is totally unavailable to me. even if we lived in the same city, even if we were at the same level, she's married. married. period. and i realize that maybe, if things had been different, maybe we could have had something special. something that maybe even her and her husband don't have. don't get me worng. i'm glad she is happy. that's what i want for her. a happy life. maybe i'm a little jealous. maybe that's it. but i'll only admit to being jealous to the circumstances that brought them together, never jealous of the man. envious that i never got the chance that he got. that's all i'll admit to. the truth."
i wish i remembered for sure who i'd written this about. i have an idea but...
sometime in '00 or '01, was writing on loose sheets of paper and wasn't dating them.
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Wow, this is good stuff. So let me ask you this...If you had the opportunity to speak to this person again what exactly would you say if she wasn't married still? Would you pursue the relationship or leave it alone in the past?
ReplyDeleteif i wrote this for who i think i did then i'll just say we've spoken and acknowledged that we had had feelings for one another. but things happen...and apparently for a reason. she divorced and moved away and i guess that's the answer to your second question.
ReplyDeleteYea, funny how that works...
ReplyDeletefunny isn't the word i would've used.
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