Re-Writes..."Religion"

"i don't even know why i'm writing this. wait, yes i do! i'm writing this because the feelings i have for you consume me with a passion that words can't describe, emotions that fill my being with an overwhelming joy. everyday i thank god for you, prasing him for allowing us to be so close. and for making my life seem more complete and me feel a little less alone. you don't know what you mean to me and my existence. how much i need you and how much i want you. not just physically, not just mentally, but in every way. i want all of you. because i've come to the realization that living without you isn't living at all. and i don't know what i would without you. you are my heart, the most vital part of me. and i don't think i could make it if you were gone from my life. it seems i only wake in the morning to hear your voice. i only breathe in order to see your face. i live you. i study you. i worship you. you're my religion. i place my belief in you, praying that you will ontinue to have mercy on me by allowing me to be a part of your life. i place my trust in you, only wishing that you will do the same. because even though i am a man, flawed and prone to mistakes, don't ever question how i feel about you. or wonder if my feelings are true. when you're contemplating about me and us, don't think that i desire you. don't think that i'll always be there for you. don't think that you can count on me. know these things. be convinced of them. accept them on your faith in me. accept them on my words and my actions. believe them. keep them in your heart. know that you will always be the most important thing in my life. but importantly, know that i love you."

sometime in '00 or '01, was writing on loose sheets of paper and wasn't dating them.