Re-Writes..."One Last Encounter"

"i'm still really sad that we didn't get to talk before we parted ways. i don't know how i let you get away without one last encounter. you just seemed to slip out before i could catch you. we may have even passed each other while walking through the huge crowd. i just didn't see you. but i really wanted to. i had some things i needed to say to you. maybe if we had gotten to talk i would have gotten to tell you how much you meant to me. because i don't think you knew. i think you realized that i liked you but it was more than that. not only were you beautiful and smart, you had a wonderful personality and a great demeanor. so easy to talk to, i could spend hours just bouncing ideas off of you. and even when we weren't doing anything, we had so much fun. i loved being around you. just being in your presence made me happy. and i think i made you happy. we made a terrific pair. we were so similar. so perfect together. you made me discern to myself, from our time together, that i could have something, no, someone that seemed to be on another level than i was. that i didn't have to settle for someone that i didn't want. and that i wanted you. maybe if i had said something. or hadn't stood in the background while others made their moves on you. maybe we would be together, living happily ever after. but i didn't and i have to live with that."

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