Re-Writes..."What I Think"

"i've been thinking about us. thinking about you and about your situation. i know you may not think of me as a possibility in your endeavors towards relationships. and it may not even matter because we're both already committed to other people. but this is what i was thinking. i don't know if i am the best person, that ideal choice, to complete your life. the perfect man that you deserve. i don't know if i am that guy but i know that whatever i could do for you, whatever presence i could have in your life would be better than what you have with your current boyfriend. and even though this is only my opinion, i hope what i think is important to you. because you are important to me. to me, we're more than friends. we share a bond that's beyond description and other people dream of obtaining. with so many appealing qualities, you're the standard i hold other women to. which only makes it more inconceivable why you haven't found what you're looking for in a man. someone who can be your everything. a friend, a lover, a partner. a shoulder to cry on, someone to share a laugh with. is it wrong for me to only want the best for you? to want you to be happy? to want you to have the finer things in life? a successful career, a loving marriage, a wonderful family. but i can't see this guy being everything you need, all the things you desire. and you don't know how my heart breaks when you tell me the stories of your daily experiences with him. how difficult it is for me to maintain my composure when i hear of how he treats you. why anyone would do anything to upset you i don't know. i can't understand why he takes you for granted. why he doesn't seem to realize just what he has. or seem to value his relationship with you. you deserve better than him. you need a real man. because this guy can't be a real man. a real man would be able to see how special you are. beautiful, intelligent, charming. a real man would realize how fortunate, no, how blessed he was to have you in his life. to know he had your love. a real man would see these things. and know that he could do anything, accomplish any goal, conquer any obstacle, because he had you by his side. nurturing him. loving him. a real man would know that these are the only things he needs. and you'd be happy. and i'd be happy for you. that's what i've been thinking."

5-23-00