Re-Writes..."Alone"

"i'm so alone, nobody's here
i wipe my face to shed a tear
and cry into my cotton sheets
under my blanket, filled with fear

life's uncertain, no direction
weird when you're used to perfection
outdoing others, storied feats
when looking back in reflection

i'm so alone, nobody stayed
when happiness began to fade
and discontent crept in to dwell
out of the sun, in my heart's shade

i've soaked my sheets with tears of pain
life by myself is wedding rain
unbearable, a living hell
it's getting harder to maintain

i'm so alone, i must contend
that darkness is my only friend
through life, i'll shout it in the streets
it's me alone until the end"

1-18-00