Re-Writes..."Feelings"

"have you ever wanted someone so bad that you couldn't imagine that person not being in your life? and i mean where your own existence seemed lacking in areas that are reasons for even living. like this person was just as essential to your life as air and water are. and when you were in this person's presence, you felt at peace with yourself and your surroundings and content with your life. and when that person smiled, any doubt you may have had about your life life immediately disappeared. you felt like you could conquer the world. and when they laughed, you felt happy knowing that this angel sitting next to you was happy. and sometimes when you were together, you would stare at them, not only contemplating how fortunate you were just to be in that person's company, but just trying to soak up the essence of that person. taking in their being, studying each and every feature that makes up their body. the color and texture of their hair, the color of their eyes, how they purse their lips when they're just listening to you talk, how they cross and re-cross their legs when they're watching television, the way they sigh. every little detail that to anyone else must seem insignificant, but to you, these are the things that make that person unique and beautiful, beyond their physical being. have you ever noticed the details of someone like that before? which one of your encounters was the one when you realized you wanted that person permanently in your life? do you remember? i do. i remember the exact moment you in my life?"

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