Writes..."I, B Hunting"

"sean: do you have a soulmate?
will: define that.
sean: someone who challenges you.
will: that's easy - chuckie.
sean: no, you know chuckie would lie down in traffic for you. i'm talking about someone who you can relate to, who opens things up for you. someone who touches your soul.
will: sure, i got plenty.
sean: well, name them.
will: shakespeare, nietzsche, frost, o'conner...
sean: well that's great. they're all dead.
will: not to me, they're not.
sean: you can't have a lot of dialogue with them.
will: not without a heater and some serious smelling salts."

-dialogue from "good will hunting"

"i couldn't stop my eyes from wetting my face as i watched this scene from "good will hunting" so i put my hoodie on and walk outside, i don't need anyone asking me why i'm crying. they wouldn't understand. i mean, everyone thinks they're unique. everyone thinks they're a snowflake but really everyone's not. people conform, they want to fit in, thus either losing their individuality or never developing one. they become clones of one another and i'm no clone. i am different. weird? eccentric? maybe, but i'm good with it. see, anyone who knows me and has seen that movie sees me as the title character, both positively and negatively. i won't say i'm that smart. i'm not that smart. but i'm closer to him smart than to "100". and i understand certain aspects of what matt damon's character was going through. people tell me i'm wasting myself doing the bullshit i'm doing every day. every day!!! i'm smart, i'm creative and i'm talented. i need to be doing more, i get it. and the loneliness...it's extremely lonely being different. and it's extremely lonely being smart. that's the realization i've come to. i wipe my eyes but i can't stop crying. am i lonely? yes... do i have a soulmate? uh? probably...hopefully...who knows? i know it's not nietzsche or frost or shakespeare. i keep my hoodie over my face to hide my eyes as i go back inside. as sad as i am, i realize that this is my life as i b hunting for some sense of direction. i, b. hunting. now that is creative."