Re-Writes..."Loyalty"

“yeah, i know i claim to be an adventist. and i know i say that i am a christian. and that christians are supposed to be like christ and love everybody, like you would love yourself, the way you want to be loved. unconditionally. but the fact is, i don’t. i don’t love everybody. no one does. no one can honestly say they love every person in the world unconditionally. that may be what they strive for, but nobody’s reached that goal yet. so anyone who says they do is lying. it’s not like i wish bad things on people. and it’s not like i delight in other people’s misery. it’s just that i don’t care. i don’t care if they live or die. or even exist. call it apathy. call it indifference. that’s the way i am. i keep to myself. i hold a few people close to me. i only have a select group of people that i would say i love. but to these people, no one in the world is more loyal than i am. and no one is more faithful. because i pledge my allegiance to the people i care about. a steadfastness unparalleled. but only to these people i love. i’m not above anything other than that right now.”

sometime in '00 or '01, i don't remember the exact date.