Re-Writes..."Pressure"

“i’m tired of people saying, “you’re smart” when it comes to why i should be doing something. you know, it’s like, “you’re smart, you can do this or you would make a good that.” using my brain as a reason i have to achieve. but does my being smart mean that i deserve the extra pressure that people with less intelligence don’t get? i mean, people don’t go around saying, “man, i know he’s stupid and will never amount to much, but maybe if i keep nagging him he’ll come around. and one day become a pillar of society. yeah, i just keep smothering him with pressure until he succeeds or cracks.” i know they don’t. so why force success on me? and why am i labeled an underachiever if i don’t want to conquer the world with my knowledge? because i don’t have the desire to. people only achieve things because they want them. and the expectations people seem to have for me aren’t very important to me right now. today, i seek one thing. something i feel is a truly remarkable accomplishment. a lasting relationship.”

sometime in '00 or '01, i don't remember the exact date.