Re-Writes..."Time"

“i know i’ve finally committed to a relationship. finally committed to being with someone. giving that person my heart. giving that person my being. but have i completely committed myself to this? have i totally given everything i have to us? i don’t think so. i know that i keep my feelings and thoughts to myself. and that you want to know these things. but making myself vulnerable isn’t something i like to do. letting someone come into my world. into the way i think, the way i feel. i’ve never been able to do this before. never been able to let someone get close to me. so i’ve been wondering to myself. is it fair to you? and is it fair to us? i don’t know. and that bothers me because i want us to work. but the problems that have hindered me in the past continue to threaten my future. so forgive me if i seem distant. i’m trying to change. i want to be better. i just need some time. time with you. time for us.”

sometime in '00 or '01, i don't remember the exact date.