Re-Writes..."Reunion With A Smile"

“maybe it was fate. maybe it was destiny. maybe it was a blessing from god. or a joke from the devil. i’m not sure what it was that brought our paths together again. but i know it wasn’t a coincidence. that i just happened to go get something to eat, that you just happened to be there already. after three years without contact. three long agonizing years of me having to go through life without you, without your presence, your being. every day. you don’t know how i’ve thought about you, something only thinking about you. wondering what you were doing or how you would react to a certain situation. if you were thinking about me and what you would think of me writing about you. you don’t know how i’ve felt about you. how i regret never telling you that i loved you and hoping that you felt the same towards me. always wishing that you were happy and content. because i could be miserable if i knew that you weren’t. i could keep my feelings for you hidden if you had a loving relationship. with a nurturing man. even if he wasn’t me. but back to our moment. as i walked through the door and looked over at the counter, i could see you standing there. and total shock took over my body. my heart stopped. i couldn’t breathe. it was like seeing a ghost. for the first time since graduation day, you were standing in front of me. three years. and what did you do when you saw me? you smiled. that perfect smile of yours that only angels have. that smile that i have dreams of seeing again for three years. a smile that reassures doubt and brightens up the darkness in my heart. a sight so familiar, so lovely to me, that it seems to have its own place in my heart, other than the part you already occupy. and it had been missing. i don’t know how i made it without you and your smile. but i know this. i’m not about to let it happen again.”

sometime in '00, i don't remember the exact date.