Re-Writes..."Regret"

“life should be lived with no regrets. there shouldn’t be any times that when reflected on you say “i should have done that differently”. if i could only say that. i wish i could say that. in one case in particular. i met this girl through a mutual friend. no, she wasn’t a girl or even a woman. she was a fantasy, possessing a beauty that few others could match. and a body that seemed to have been created by the greatest sculptor. she had a flawless appearance. but i had heard bad things about her. things that if you heard about someone you didn’t know would probably cause you to form an opinion of them before you were even introduced. but i don’t think that was the reason i didn’t talk to her. because most of the bad things i’d heard were speculation and went in one ear and out the other. i didn’t know her then, so i didn’t care. the reason i didn’t talk to her was because i was shy. my social skills are lacking and meeting new people is difficult for me. this is a reason for my regrets. i wish i had gotten to know this girl better. i say better because eventually we began to exchange dialogue. she majored in playing an instrument and when i began to play bass, sometimes we would see each other in the music building. she would be practicing some difficult musical piece alone, so i would drop in her booth and listen to her play. sometimes we would just talk, getting to know each other. i really liked being with her. she was older than me, from somewhere other than akron, and had experienced things i hadn’t. but i think one of the most important things was that she was easy to talk to. i didn’t have to do anything but be my charming self. and she liked me. but when the semester was over, she was done and moved back to her hometown. i do regret that i waited so long before i spoke to her. but i don’t regret our time together. it may have been short, but the memories lessen my regret a bit.”

sometime in '00 or '01, i don't remember the exact date.